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Today, I found my first grey hair. It was white, actually, and wiry. Well, I guess my husband will soon discover that I wasn't joking when I told him years ago, that I refused to be a slave to a bottle of colour, and that when it was time for me to go grey, then I was going to roll with it.

I just didn't realize that it would be so soon. It's another reminder that I'm not a kid anymore. I haven't been for ages, and I haven't been able to pass as one for ages. Depending on how fast this progresses, I may soon have people guessing my age as older than I actually am instead of younger.

I had always hoped that I would take after my grandfather who only had a handful of greys by his late 70s. Evidently, I take more after my grandmother. Of course, stress doesn't help, I'm sure...

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Current Mood: surprised

We’re moving to a bigger place that’s closer to a bunch of stuff for all of us. This is a very good, happy, thing.

The strange thing about the prospect of moving is that it seems to have unearthed some feelings about our current arrangement that I didn’t even know I had. It’s almost as though I didn’t really allow myself to have those unhappy feelings because I didn’t feel like there was anything I could do to change the situation at the time. Now that our move has been set in stone, and everything is signed, etc., a bunch of negativity has come flooding to the surface. Holy crap. I honestly had no idea that I was so miserable here.

This of course leads me to wonder if there are other aspects of my life that secretly make me miserable, but that have no clue about because I feel like there’s nothing I can do to change the situation, so I just surpress the feeling? Hmmmm....