Finally...

[mahogany]

We’re moving to a bigger place that’s closer to a bunch of stuff for all of us. This is a very good, happy, thing.

The strange thing about the prospect of moving is that it seems to have unearthed some feelings about our current arrangement that I didn’t even know I had. It’s almost as though I didn’t really allow myself to have those unhappy feelings because I didn’t feel like there was anything I could do to change the situation at the time. Now that our move has been set in stone, and everything is signed, etc., a bunch of negativity has come flooding to the surface. Holy crap. I honestly had no idea that I was so miserable here.

This of course leads me to wonder if there are other aspects of my life that secretly make me miserable, but that have no clue about because I feel like there’s nothing I can do to change the situation, so I just surpress the feeling? Hmmmm....

Comments

[xpashax.livejournal.com]

Congrats, it'll be cool to be closer to things. My goal is to move close enough to my job some day that I can ride a bike to work. ;-)

[harrywhereareya.livejournal.com]

Glad that your move is a happy event for you! It will make life a bit easier on you, and hopefully you will have more time for thing that give you joy.

I find that many times I departmentalize things in my life, so things that me sadness I bury, since there is nothing I can do about it.

Enjoy your new home.

[nightynight.livejournal.com]

That is exactly what happened to me when I quit this recent job. I could not believe the anger that surfaced that I had no idea existed. On subjects I did not realize I felt angry about.

But I was - and in some cases still am - angry. This has made me realize I need to find a way to deal with anger, or at least write down the things I am 'managing', when they come up.

Sadness too. Coming up. Lots of 'what a crying shame this is'. It isn't necessarily something that makes sense, but I think I have felt my recent job to be a crying shame for 18 months but that is a BIG feeling I had to suppress. Now it's here. And I have to deal with it.

I've taken it up with my psychologist. Just saying what was WRONG out loud has helped.