Me too. One of the things I have been doing recently is systematically working my way around my friendships and basically notifying them that I am a Christian again. Also with new friendships just saying look I'm Lutheran fyi. What I find interesting about this at the moment is fewer people than I expect are prone to drop me and it's more that they're interested in how it happened. So I get to testify to my faith? which is seriously interesting. I just did this last night and the conversation was 100% just "yeah, I can see how you got there. huh. that's cool." Cool, as in, thanks for telling me this, I would not actually know you fully had you not. People in many ways go out of their way in fact now to ask about my church and this matter.
Except of course in the Incredibly Liberal and Accepting Place that is the University. sigh.
I think I have lost more friends as a result of getting married than I have re: letting God back into my life. Seriously. Not because of Scott but because being married is different than being alone and my social choices are different. Maybe I'm not living my faith out loud. As you know it's incredibly irritating at a university. It helps a lot that the lutheran university chaplain and two faculty members are also members of my church and my pastor connected me with them when I explained that I was feeling frustrated by the judgment of others, a literal intelligence-judgment, when I say "I'm Lutheran." YES I am aware that Martin Luther was an anti-semite YES I am aware that Hitler used Luther's words to justify the holocaust YES I am aware the Lutheran history includes persecution of anabaptists. No, I'm not a person who hates Jewish people because I am Lutheran. Do these people honestly think I am a half-wit, intellectually? Sheesh.
Here's one thing. I have a new colleague and we went for lunch and before we ate she sort of embarassed-uncomfortable said one moment please and then she prayed before she ate. I said to her, listen I'm your sister in this regard, and I thought, I have some responsibility to speak my faith out loud routinely because she was so uncomfortable and she is just entering her professional life and look how scared she was and it's so darn unnecessary but look at her courage, what's my excuse?
I have lost friends though, that is true, but I have gained so much more that I can't even begin to describe it. It's like when I quit drinking and all my friends who were worried about their own drinking started quietly coming out of the drinking-closet with me.
I definitely deliberately avoided a fight a friend was about to pick with me over the song 'Everything's Alright' from the Jesus Christ Superstar soundtrack over the whole matter of prostitutes in Jesus' life. It is ridiculous to me to read this sentence let alone having lived that moment. I just could not enter into a theological-sociocultural argument on this, because I didn't actually feel spiritually prepared to *defend* the fact that women figure prominently in the life of Christ and that THIS IS NOT EXPLOITATION OF WOMEN! What!? Seriously what on earth? I don't know what God would have asked me to do but I felt like, that other person's views on Christianity are so twisted around by the academy that I can't even talk about Mary Magdalene with this feminist I admire because SHE can't get past...what? The fact that Mary Magdalene is more than a plot device to me?
If they only knew, these folks, how God saved me this year, He saved my life, He saved my MARRIAGE. He saved me in my calling to be a mother. His love protects me in a million little ways all the time. I am so grateful, and I'm in a place where I'm pretty sure my career needs to point in the direction of a faith-based post-secondary work environment. Not to avoid being in the world, but in terms of service, if in this environment I'm not allowed to integrate God's instructions then I have to do the same thing I did with the baby and go to my backyard and lean back and say to the sky again "lay it on me, whatever I am supposed to do, I am ready".
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Date: 2010-09-11 11:17 pm (UTC)Except of course in the Incredibly Liberal and Accepting Place that is the University. sigh.
I think I have lost more friends as a result of getting married than I have re: letting God back into my life. Seriously. Not because of Scott but because being married is different than being alone and my social choices are different. Maybe I'm not living my faith out loud. As you know it's incredibly irritating at a university. It helps a lot that the lutheran university chaplain and two faculty members are also members of my church and my pastor connected me with them when I explained that I was feeling frustrated by the judgment of others, a literal intelligence-judgment, when I say "I'm Lutheran." YES I am aware that Martin Luther was an anti-semite YES I am aware that Hitler used Luther's words to justify the holocaust YES I am aware the Lutheran history includes persecution of anabaptists. No, I'm not a person who hates Jewish people because I am Lutheran. Do these people honestly think I am a half-wit, intellectually? Sheesh.
Here's one thing. I have a new colleague and we went for lunch and before we ate she sort of embarassed-uncomfortable said one moment please and then she prayed before she ate. I said to her, listen I'm your sister in this regard, and I thought, I have some responsibility to speak my faith out loud routinely because she was so uncomfortable and she is just entering her professional life and look how scared she was and it's so darn unnecessary but look at her courage, what's my excuse?
I have lost friends though, that is true, but I have gained so much more that I can't even begin to describe it. It's like when I quit drinking and all my friends who were worried about their own drinking started quietly coming out of the drinking-closet with me.
I definitely deliberately avoided a fight a friend was about to pick with me over the song 'Everything's Alright' from the Jesus Christ Superstar soundtrack over the whole matter of prostitutes in Jesus' life. It is ridiculous to me to read this sentence let alone having lived that moment. I just could not enter into a theological-sociocultural argument on this, because I didn't actually feel spiritually prepared to *defend* the fact that women figure prominently in the life of Christ and that THIS IS NOT EXPLOITATION OF WOMEN! What!? Seriously what on earth? I don't know what God would have asked me to do but I felt like, that other person's views on Christianity are so twisted around by the academy that I can't even talk about Mary Magdalene with this feminist I admire because SHE can't get past...what? The fact that Mary Magdalene is more than a plot device to me?
If they only knew, these folks, how God saved me this year, He saved my life, He saved my MARRIAGE. He saved me in my calling to be a mother. His love protects me in a million little ways all the time. I am so grateful, and I'm in a place where I'm pretty sure my career needs to point in the direction of a faith-based post-secondary work environment. Not to avoid being in the world, but in terms of service, if in this environment I'm not allowed to integrate God's instructions then I have to do the same thing I did with the baby and go to my backyard and lean back and say to the sky again "lay it on me, whatever I am supposed to do, I am ready".
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